Time goes by

I realize that the last post was kinda depressing and I didn't want any to end up that way, So I must share something that in my opinion is quite beautiful but maybe only to mommies!
and just incase u couldn't already tell I am known for making short stories long!

So this week has gone by so slowly!
Since Wednesday or so both of my boys have had a cold. At first it was just runny noses and a little coughing. But around Thursday evening My little Enzo started running a fever and saying that his ear hurt. I don't really like giving them antibiotics right away because they had them so much when they were babies. So he's been in bed for the last few days. Suprisingly he even let me get tylenol down his throat two or three times, usually I have to put it in with strawberry milk. He still fights me but it's much better than it used to be. And most shocking Lorenzo has been drinking a lot of water. Usually he'll sip it only when he tastes his food but today he asked for it in a sippy cup and was drinking it down. But getting to the point of my story, He luvs his Bubba so much that whenever the tylenol kicks in he gets up to play with him and says "I go pway with Luis now" and in the middle of the night he wakes up and says "I go lay with Luis" and then comes back a little later when his fever is back. In the morning when they get up Luis comes in and says "c'mon Enzo let's pway" and Enzo says "sorry Luis I sick, maybe wayter"
It's so sad and yet so cute! I'm so lucky to have such loving kids, they really are best friends!
Anyway I've been spending most of my time laying next to Lorenzo and taking care of him so now I'm also sick but ya know how moms are we can be sick and still get up and cook for our hubbies. As far as cleaning goes, well that's another story.
Well my loving husband is doing all the grocery shopping for me so I better get to my grocery list.

Moving Home!

As many times as I have moved away from home I always seem to be drawn back there. I don't know why really, I mean it's so beautiful in Portland. There is so much to see and so many different kinds of people. I really do love it! What's hard is having family that I love so much and not being able to have the relationships that I want so much! I just don't get them and I don't think they get me.
But now that I am married and have a family of my own I have to learn that it's not only me that matters as much as I want to run away from my childhood nightmares. I do still have so many good relationships at home that I don't want to ignore. Javier's family is there also and I just can't imaging having our kids grow up without them. His family is so opposite of mine. I don't want to keep the kids from knowing their large family. As disfunctional as my family was, I loved that I had so many aunts and uncles and cousins around and even though we may not be close now. Those are memories that are so close to my heart.
I feel like leaving Tulsa isn't going to be as easy as it seems like it should be. I haven't really made a lot of connections here but the ones I have made I think are what kept me from crying everyday being away from anything familiar. I've learned so much about myself this year though. I don't want to let life pass by me anymore. I want to go after my goals and not be lazy anymore. I want to get closer to my friends and family who are good for me and learn how to keep my distance from those who aren't so good while still loving them. I think that life here is so much slower and people really care more about other people and that's what I really love about Tulsa. Family and friends are most important and not getting ahead and what u can gain. I wish I could stay here and have all my family move here but that isn't going to happen. I hope that I will be able to keep in touch with people here and I hope that going back home wont mean moving backwards for me. I don't want to want too much but I also don't want to want too little. I think God has so many blessings that are here for us to experience I want to take advantage of every one that I can!

My Looooooooooooong Sunday

Today I planned to get up early... that didn't happen. I got up around 10 and had some really strong coffee hoping it would get rid of my awful headache. I had planned to make Mole Poblano today and I just couldn't let my husband down. I bought the million ingredients and even new pans since I have almost none.
So I haven't made this before and I was very nervous but I did a lot of research on Youtube and I even watched the ones in spanish, which I understood almost nothing of.
So I made it and it did look right but at first didn't taste like I thought it should. However, after simmering for about 2 hours I was very impressed with myself and so was my hubby! It was so good that he even said it was better than the resturaunt version we love so much. Wow! He doesn't hand out compliments like that often, lol!
Anyway my house was a mess all day long. Toys and blankets were everywhere video games on all day and with my headache that never went away I decided to take a late nap. I just woke up at 7:20! But I did get right up with no headache and clean and get the kids into bed.
Even though it was a very lazy day, I feel like much was accomplished, and now my husband is on his way to Braums for ice cream!
Today was a good day, I have to admit.

Oh and I'll add the recipe for mole poblano on my other blog.

New Blog

I'm getting to know a little more how to do this blog thing, So this is my second one. This is everything about me. The girly side, the mommy side, the wifey side and the friend side!

I am 26 and just starting to really know me and be me.
I have 3 kids ages 7 and twins age 5
I am happily married to what I call the closest thing to perfect!
I don't always treat him that way but I love him deeply and hope he knows that!

A few things about me

I've always dreamed of being a singer, I love all music! I'm kinda shy though, If I don't know u so I don't know how well I would do in public, I've only performed a few times and that was soooo long ago!

I use exclamation points way too much! Lol!

I am an artist at heart so I love anything that is creative.
I want to be a hairstylist, a make-up artist, a painter, potter, interior designer, chef, fashion designer and a musician.
But if u came to my house u wouldn't be able to tell any of this other than maybe a singer and chef.

I am slowly teaching myself to crochet and knit and when I can afford a sewing machine I will do that as well.

I want to be a nurse or a midwife and photographer on the side but I am also thinking about being a speech therapist or occupational or physical therapist because I have two autistic children and it has made me see children with disabilities as an inspiration, even with all the things that hold them back I think they have a magic about them! But for now I am just getting my GED and I will be starting school this year so we'll see what happens.

I've gone through a lot of tough things in my life and even though I didn't realize it, I've let it bring me down and keep me from following my dreams. I've used being a stay at home mom, as an excuse. Now that they are getting older, I want them to learn that following your dreams is the real key to happiness. I know that I can only show them by example.

I am ordinary but don't consider myself someone who "fits in". I'm unlike anyone I know. I love people who dare to be different.
I always try to do the right thing and I think other people should too. I'm a little judgemental but I love unconditionally.

I have a strong faith in God I just don't know how to share it with the world yet, if that makes sense.
I love entertaining people and cooking for people and learning from people and I love it when people can look past what they see and realize that there is more than meets the eye to everyone.

I am always all over the place, I'm totally random and I don't know why but I'm okay with it now.

I think the most amazing people I've ever met are my kids, they are so smart and even though they drive me nuts. I fall in love with them over and over again!

I lost my mom almost 2 years ago and it really changed my life, I realize now after being depressed for so long that I am done with it. I've made a choice to change it. Everything I do from now on will be to make sure that I open to all the blessings God has to offer!

I want to be a happy girl a happy mom a happy wife and a happy friend!