Cosmetology school

I'm finally ready to go. I have a lot of goals that are so far apart from each other like cosmetolgy school, midwifery, singer, Suzie Homemaker, artist....
Well I've decided that in the fall when my boys start kindergarten I am going to school also. I have someone really close that can watch them. Javier's family, which is good because it's family AND they can learn spanish finally.
Well they'll only go every other day but all day, But, it's a start right?
I don't know anything about this really. Like how to apply for loans or financial aid or enroll and how it all works, I'm really scared. I feel like a fat frumpy old mommy lady and I'm going into a business that I love yes!, But that I feel like people are going to see me and say "what are u doing here? what do u know about style?" But I also feel like maybe it will help to get the "Lisa" back. Who I used to be before all the kids and being a wife. It's hard to remember what that was like and who that person was. But I miss her. The closer I get to 30 the more I realize that. And since my birthday just passed maybe that is why I'm so determined? I always thought I had to be perfect to be Mommy and Wifey, and leave the old me behind. But now that my children are getting older and starting to have their own interests, it reminds me how important it is for them to know who they are and not to every lose it or let the hard times in your life change who u really are. I've gone through a lot of chaos in my life, and now it's so boring that I am affraid to take any chances. But I want to quit daydreaming about all the things I want to do and instead experience them.

Anyway I didn't mean to get all sappy so to show u how excited I am about going to school, I want to show u what I can't wait to learn. First, (I don't know how I found this website but this girl's make-up is awesome! See it here >>> Queen Bee Chronicles
and also take a look at this girl. I LOVE HER! www.makeupgeek.com
I can't wait to go shopping for new brushes!